Thus I Wrote

I’m not that ruthless
I’m not as decisive as you
I worried that if I jumped
Your fall could hurt you
And I was trying to take stock
I was trying to understand
I was trying to hold on
Trying to hold your hand
I was trying to stay on
As we were thrown about
I was honest, I could’ve lied
In my confusion and my doubt

I’m not that cool
I’ll say I’ve been hurt by you
I’ll say I miss you
I’ll say I want to see you
There were too many questions
I could feel you slipping
Then we were falling
We could hear things ripping
I gave all I could
I really cared about you
But I knew this could end
With only hurt to hold on to

I ‘m not that confident
I can’t say it will be fine
No, I need to see much further
Right on down the line
I don’t close my eyes and jump
No, I look before I leap
And maybe he who hesitates is lost
But we gotta choose what we sow and reap
This is another defeat
But we have not lost
Let’s remember the dream
Let’s forget the cost