Posts Tagged ‘marriage’
Lemonade going Sour
Hey B, I hear you
But I ain’t no mushroom
You’re so hot on the stage
And so cold in the bedroomYou say you’re not happy
You say it’s my fault
Well that’s your wound
And that’s your saltI worked with Becky
We had some platonic fun
But you made the bullet
And you pointed the gunAnd what’s with the hive?
All them sisters now onside
Saying you’re now a victim
You know that’s not rightI love you baby
I want to see you happy
I never want to hurt you
But you gotta believe meI love you baby
But you gotta move on
If we can’t stop hurting
Then we’ll soon be gone
To One I Once Loved
I can’t talk to you now, it hurts too much.
We’ve tried to talk together about basic stuff
But we get lost down some dark maze
Of misunderstandings and hurtful ways.
Instead of your beauty and your grace
I see the dormant anger in your face.I’ve no blame left for you over this deep cut
But I feel pain and have guilt deep in my gut
Yes and I’ve despair over all that’s died
‘Cos once we were cool, side by sideChristmas was harder in this Winter rain
As memories washed over me again
I was numb ’til now but then something restarted
I finally told a friend that we had parted
It was a punch to the heart as it all rose up again
A complex mixture of sorrow and of shame
Oh I hope this year that we’ll restart our lives
I think I’m ready but demons may still arise.Oh I can hope but I cannot trust completely.
I can still be loud when I should say things discreetly
I’ve tried to change but I say things carelessly
I’ve been swimming against a current ceaselesslySomeday we’ll meet and talk of old times
And you’ll enjoy your time and I’ll enjoy mine
But now in your heart there’s still a bend
And that’ll take some time for you to mendI hate how my wrong word you didn’t need
Somehow killed off my history of good deeds
How you drew lines where I felt I could only lose
With loved ones on different sides and saying “now choose”
And how you felt betrayed when I tried to still
Our turbulent family waters with logic and willWell I can be kind and I can do the right thing
Sometimes with you I was guilty of forgetting
You’re a good woman and you’ve a good heart
Still you found all those things in me that kept us apart
And I don’t know why, but it all went black
I wish I could change it and turn it all back
I haven’t forgotten you laughing in my arms
And I haven’t forgotten your beauty and your charms
But now I’ve bought new clothes to stir my blood
And I’ll paint in bright colours, it’s time I should.Oh I can hope but I cannot trust completely.
Life is messy and rarely happens neatly
But I’ll go forward fearlessly
And swim against the current ceaselessly
The Fruits Of Our Dating – 2
The fruits of our dating
In that room of waiting
In that room of life and death
The bed was bloody red
Where she had bloody bled
And this was where we first metFighting contractions
And wired inaction
She fought till tired and worn
In that lonely room
In our own cocoon
From bleeding flesh they were tornIn the silent peace
Of the aftermath release
She was too exhausted to respond
My child explored
While I adored
And we formed an unbreakable bondI tried to be strong
As I went along
But was guilty of many thoughtless sins
I hope my love is the base
That gives them the grace
To be happy in their own skinsEconomically they strive
As people they thrive
And I’m proud of their success
They’re my lifelong joy
And the love they employ
Is a constant in my happiness
Moody Puss
Now then moody puss,
Have I’ve done something wrong?
I see you’ve got that frown again,
I see you’ve got your face on.
I feel your silent disapproval,
I feel the tension of a trigger,
Behind angry words all ready,
To shoot me down with vigour.We used to laugh and joke around,
And lighten up our day.
Maybe with a glass of wine,
And romantic interplay,
It’s hard to remember cuddles now,
On a day like today,
When you’re all argumentative,
No matter what I say.Yeah, well I’m sorry, I really am,
But work needed me late.
I’m no good at these arguments,
And you always win these debates,
That happen often and it hurts,
When you say that I don’t care.
Well, of course I do, I really do,
But… this is getting us nowhere.
The Mourning Bride 2
Nothing else exists now, even death is spurned
My raging silent storm will scorch and burn
Heaven hath no rage like love to hatred turned
Nor Hell a Fury, like a Woman scorned.The promises we made as we faced each other
I offered my mind and my body to you
Our lives we joined as we faced each other
I offered to cherish and to love youAh. . . Look at me now, 14 years later
Was my beauty wasted on you?
Ah. . . Look at me now, 14 years later
Was my love wasted on you?Who will give me justice for this affair?
Why did you cheat and lie with her?
Did I not love and cherish you more ?
Is my fading beauty not enough anymore?I stare into a future on a lonely shelf
I cry with grief and I hold on to myself
I was beginning to like the self I had learned
But now doubts and questions have returnedAh. . . Look at me now, 14 years later
Was my beauty wasted on you?
Ah. . . Look at me now, 14 years later
Was my love wasted on you?
The Mourning Bride
Nothing else exists now, even death is spurned
My raging silent storm will scorch and burn
Heaven hath no rage like love to hatred turned
Nor Hell a Fury, like a Woman scorned.The promises we made as we faced each other
I offered my beauty and my body to you
Our lives we joined as we faced each other
I offered to cherish and to love youAh. . . Look at me now, 14 years together
All that time gone, my beauty wasted on you
Ah. . . Look at me now, 14 years together
All that time gone, my love wasted on youOh the grief. . .my loneliness learned
Oh the grief. . .my stomach churned
Heaven has no Rage, like Love to Hatred turned
Nor Hell a Fury, like a Woman scorned.Why?. . . did I not love you enough?
Why?. . . did I not cherish you enough?
Why?. . . did I not provide enough?
Why?. . . was I not exciting enough?Ah. . . Look at me now, 14 years together
All that time gone, my beauty wasted on you
Ah. . . Look at me now, 14 years together
All that time gone, my love wasted on youOh the anguish. . . my life has turned
Oh the anguish. . . my future spurned
Heaven has no Rage, like Love to Hatred turned
Nor Hell a Fury, like a Woman scorned.No justice for the death of love in this affair
For the death of confidence, no it’s all not fair
What God had joined now wrenched apart and left bare
With a world cold and silent without careOh. . . Look at me now, 14 years together
All that time gone, my beauty wasted on you
Oh. . . Look at me now, 14 years together
All that time gone, my love wasted on you
The End of a Page
And now it seems strange
But yesterday you were mine
And tomorrow you’ll be gone
But I know you’ll be fineIts not the end of my book
Just the end of a page
I gave to the world
And this is my wage
I’ll turn it over
And to the top I’ll go
I’ll read on without you
But I’ll read on slowI fell from the top
Of your shiny glass wall
I held on too tight
‘Til it wasn’t me at allIts not the end of my book
Just the end of a page
I gave to the world
And this is my wage
I’ll turn it over
And to the top I’ll go
I’ll read on without you
But I’ll read on slowI eat bread with olives
And drink wine now and then
As the sun sinks on the terrace
I remember you back whenIts not the end of my book
Just the end of a page
I gave to the world
And this is my wage
I’ll turn it over
And to the top I’ll go
I’ll read on without you
But I’ll read on slow
The Contract
Did you break it?
And did you betray?
Or actually did I, then?
I was just in your way?When we signed
What did we actually agree?
How would I love you?
And how would you love me?If I don’t make you happy
Are you free to go?
Free to find your happiness
And step on me as you go?We had a written contract
And a commitment called marriage
But when love went out the window
The wheels came off that carriageWas the real contract written
In blood, in our hearts?
And when the blood, it cooled
You decided we should partI was hurt and I was angry
And fearful of course
But of our faults together
I believe we share the sourceI want now to heal
So I will let go
Of all anger and blame
And this takes time I know…
The Aftermath
Let’s go to sleep
I was appealing
Oh, please tell me
What you’re feeling(It was the aftermath
In the moonlight
And my eyes were heavy
After our loving night)Are you happy
With how we are?
Yes, of course darling
Together we’ve come farTell me your dreams
What do you believe?
What do you want?
And hope to receiveUh…What…?
It’s late & this is deep
Let’s just agree…
To cuddle and to sleepBut I’m afraid…
And it’s lonely if I hide
I need your love
To fill the emptiness insideUh…Did I dream?
Did you want some tea?
I’ve been working so hard
And I’m so sleepy…you see?I drifted off to sleep
So I couldn’t see her
As she turned over quietly
And wiped away her tear
Lustrous Brown – The Parting
I remember the cracks
You felt out of control
You felt lonely and hurt
And you blamed my roleSo did I not love you?
Enough to stop your fear grow?
Did I let the emptiness
Creep into your soul?Or was there a seed sown
In your lonely childhood?
That so choked your heart
And so froze your blood?But by what strange alchemy
Can we so change our state?
From such bright love
To such anger and hate?So as we drew our lines
And we fought to stalemate
Our union became a patient
That we dissected on a plateBut still, it felt a shock
Like a punch to the heart
I thought we could mend
But you said we must part
